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      Sam, Dean and Cas are helping Jack into a room in the bunker. He is dying from
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Sam, Dean and Cas are helping Jack into a room in the bunker. The power from Adam's Rib, which was meant to be used to kill Chuck, is killing him. Billie appears and tells them that she can not stop the process of what Jack is going through. She makes him Jack disappear from his chair. He finds himself in the empty, in front of the Cosmic Entity, who is seated in front of him in the form of Meg. She asks him how he got there. And then he explodes.  
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a spell to kill Chuck. Billie appears and says, they have done enough. Standing with
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Billie tells them that the Empty is the one place that can absorb the impact. Death hints that Jack may have survived. She tells them that the Cosmic Entity is not as powerful as Chuck, and if survives, it will be angry at her. However it can't reach her on Earth, unless summoned. She tells them that she will not bring Jack back till he gives her God's book that
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her sickle. She tells them that their plan was doomed, because of them. She can not
 
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stop the process of what Jack is going through. She makes him Jack disappear from  
 
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his chair. He is in the empty. Meg, the empty, is seated in front of him. She asks him
 
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how he got there. Then he explodes.  
 
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      Billie tells them, that Jack is in the empty. It's a place that can absorb the impact.  
 
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It was intended for cosmic forces, Chuck. Cas asks if he is dead. She tells them that
 
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the Empty is not as powerful as Chuck, if he survives, the cosmic entity will be pissed. It
 
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has a beef with Billie for doing this. It won't bother her on Earth, but if summoned it could
 
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hurt her. She tells them that she will not bring him back till he gives her the book
 
 
he took from her library.   
 
he took from her library.   
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      Jack is alive, in the Empty. A black goo forms into Meg, again. It is mad. At the  
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At the bunker, Sam brings the book to Billie. He drops it on the table and walks away. She reads it and smiles at what she reads at the ending, which has changed. Dean
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bunker, Sam brings the book to Billie. He drops it on the table and walks away. She  
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demands she bring Jack back.  
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reads it and smiles at what she reads at the ending, the ending has changed. Dean
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In the Empty, Jack is alive. The Cosmic Entity reappears, and it is enraged. Itattacks jack, but he is transported back to the bunker. Cas, Sam and Dean go to comfort Jack, but Death intervenes. Dean goes after her with her sycthe and cuts her. She throws him against the wall and disappears. They all go to Jack. Sam picks up God's book but it is sealed shut.
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demands she bring Jack back. The Empty approaches Jack, he is unable to move. It
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Later, late at night, Dean is at a table in the library drinking whiskey. Sam comes in. They both can't sleep. Dean apologizes for pulling a gun on himexplaining that his desire to kill Chuck had made him unable to see what he was doing. He noted that they have no one of power to help them. Amara is gone and Michael is not answering their prayers.  
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puts its hands on both of his checks. He is back at the bunker. All three go to him,
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In her library, one of Death's helpers tells her that he did the warding she asked for, to keep out the Empty.
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Billie says no, the boy is mine. Dean goes after her with her sickle and cuts her. She  
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At the home of Charlie (from Apocalypse World) she is cleaning her weapons on the kitchen table, while Stevie makes eggs. Suddenly Stevie disappears and woman stands her plate falls to the ground and breaks.  
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throws him against the wall and disappears. They all go to Jack. Sam picks up the
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Charlie calls Sam and Dean who along with Jack and Cas travel to see her. Whiel Sam and Dean got to speak to her, Jack tells Castiel that he feels useless now he has no powers, and cannot help. Castiel tells Jack that they care for him, not because he is useful to them, but because of who he is. Jack admits he is scared, and Castiel shares that he is too.  
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book, it is sealed shut.
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Dean and Sam are telling Charlie of Death's plan and specialte that she has sent Stevie back to Apocalypse World as she wants to out everything back in order.Sams phone rings, it's Bobby, who was on a case with one of the apocalypse world hunters who disappeared.Sam says thinks anyone who should have died, or has been resurrected will be on Death's list.
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      Dean is at a table drinking whiskey. Sam comes in. They both can't sleep. Dean
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anyone who crossed over and was resurrected are on Billie's list. He realizes that Eileen is next.  
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apologizes for pulling a gun on him. Says he was ready and willing to kill Chuck. Now they  
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In the Impala Sam is texting Eileen when she suddenly stops replying. When they reach her car they find her bag and her phone on the ground.  
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have no one to help them, no one of power. Amara is gone and Michael is not
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Sam struggles to hold back his grief, and decides they should get everyone being targeted, they can to a safe warded place. Dean wants to end it with Billie -- she left her scythe, and he thinks he can kill her with that. Castiel agrees to got with him.  
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answering their prayers.  
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Sam speaks to Donna who has found a suitable place to take refuge. When they stop for gas, Sam can see how distraught Jack is, so he offers to let him drive.
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      Billie is in her library. One of her helpers tells her that he did the warding she  
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At an abandoned silo, Sam and jack meet up with Donna, Bobby, Charlie and other apocalypse world hunters and their children. They ward the silo by painting sigils all over the inside.  
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asked for, to keep out the Empty. He says, I get the plan has changed. She turns and
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As Jack reaches down to patch a crack in the wall, his hand passes near a small plant, which instantly withers. Sam does one of Rowena's spells to strengthen the warding, and Bobby tells Sam that the hunters will look to him for leadership.  
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tells him yes, it has.
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At the Bunker, Dean gets the door to Death's library from Castiel, with the intention of trying to destroy it in order to get Death's attention. Death is in the library, but she senses their presence and magically slams Dean against a  wall. She reminds Cas how he stabbed her in her back with his blade and attacks him. Dean pins her against  
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      A woman is making eggs in a kitchen. Charlie is cleaning her weapons on the  
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the wall with her blade, and asks her to stop killing his people. She tells him it isn't her, asserting that it must be Chuck. Billy tells  
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kitchen table. She is suppose to do that in another room. She pushes it all aside and
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Dean that the wound he gave her earlier is fatal. One thing she wishes before she dies is to see Dean dead. At the point she disarms him and takes back her blade. Both Dean and Cas are thrown back, and they run for the door back to the Bunker.  
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the woman puts her eggs down and she eats. They are very good. The woman stands  
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At the silo, a little girl on a cost disappears, and then one by one so do all the other hunters, including Bobby and Donna. Jack looks around and sees no one but he and Sam in the room.  
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next to the counter and eats. She vanishes, her plates falls to the ground and breaks.  
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Billie pursues Dean and Castiel into the Bunker. She clasps her hand into a fist, and Dean feels pain as if it is like his heart is being crushed. Cas helps him out of the room, through the corridors. Death follows, taunting them. They take refuge in a storage room/ Castiel cuts his hand and uses the blood to draw a warding sigil on the door, which will briefly block Death's power. She keeps banging on the door, each time the symbol glows.  
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      Sam is taking a reading in the apartment Charlie shared with Stevie. She tells
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Dean is upset and says he lead them into a trap, because he couldn't kill Chuck. He says he knows everyone will die and it is his fault. Cas points out that one thing can hurt her - The Cosmic Entity from the Empty. He tells Dean about the deal he made with the Cosmic Entity in exchange for Jack - that his life would be forfeit when he felt one moment of true happiness. He says he wondered what that moment could be, because he knew he couldn't have the one thing he really wanted. He tells Dean he know's Dean sees himself as his enemies do - driven by hate and anger. But that Cas knows Dean always acts out of love and selflessness. Those around Dean know and see this in him. He tells Dean he is the most loving and selfless person ever knew. He says that knowing Dean has changed him and made him too care about others, and  about the whole world because of him. Dean asks why this sounds like a goodbye. Castiel tells him it is and that he loves him. As he speaks the words, a portal opens, and the black goo of The empty comes into the room. At that moment Death also bursts into the room. As the cosmic entity enters Castiel pushes Dean aside, leaving a handprint in on his jacket like the one that was burned into his arm when Cas
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Sam and Dean how she met her, through Bobby on a case. Sam asks her what she saw. Saw or felt
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pulled him from hell. Then The Empty takes them bot castiel adn Castiel.  
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nothing. She was cooking and then she disappeared. Jack are by the Impala.
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Jack and Sam leave the silo. Sam tries to call Dean, there is no answer. Jack asks if it was just them left.
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He tells Cas he feels different. He was ready to die for Dean, Sam and the world. He
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At the Bunker Dean sees Sam's name on his phone. He doesn't answer it. He puts his face in his hands and cries.    
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tells Jack that they care for him, not because he is useful to them, but because you are
 
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you. He mentions how so many of power are so mad that them and he doesn't have
 
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his powers anymore. He is scared and so is Cas.  
 
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      Dean and Sam are telling Charlie of Deaths plan and she had sent Stevie back to
 
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where she came from. Theirs a pattern. Sams phone rings, it's Bobby. He was on a  
 
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case with one of the apocalypse world people. He disappeared. Sam says, it's spreading,
 
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anyone who crossed over and was resurrected are on Billies list. He realizes that  
 
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Eileen is next. They leave. In the Impala Sam is texting Eileen until it stops. She no
 
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longer responds. When they get to Eileen she is gone, just her phone is left on the ground.  
 
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He is upset and wants to round up everyone being targeted, get them safe and
 
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use warding to protect them. Dean wants to end it with Billie, she left her blade, he  
 
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can kill her with that. Cas goes with Dean, Jack goes with Sam.  
 
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      Sam is speaking to Donna on his cell. They will meet up. He asks Jack to drive.
 
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He needs to do research and contact people, he needs to drive. Jack is reluctant since
 
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he only drove one other time with Dean. He does the driving.
 
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      Dean and Cas enter the bunker. They ascend the stairs quickly. Dean asks Cas if
 
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he still has the key to Billies library, he grabs her blade. He wants to burn her library
 
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and smoke her out.  
 
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      At a tall red building like a silo. Donna and Sam meet. She hugs him and tells him
 
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she is sorry about Eileen. She meets Jack again and give him a hug, and tells them that
 
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Bobby and his crew are in there. More are coming, Garth, Jodi and the girls. Then
 
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Charlie arrives dressed in camos She doesn't want this to happen to anyone else.
 
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Inside there are symbols all over the walls. Some are still painting them. Some are
 
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children. Bobby tells Sam he is the big man, the one in charge. He has one of  
 
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Rowena's spells to strengthen the warding. Everyone is busy painting. Jack is one
 
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he notices a plant and puts his hand near it and it dies.  
 
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      Dean and Jack enter Billies library. They separate. Dean comes up behind her.
 
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She knows he is there. Cas is on the other side of her with an angel blade. She says
 
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hello boys. She asks, what's the plan to take me down with my own weapon? He
 
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mentions that she is killing her friends. He is thrown back against the wall, she  
 
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reminds Cas how he stabbed her in her back with his blade. Dean pins her against  
 
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the wall with her blade, and asks her to stop killing his people. She tells him it isn't
 
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her, he's in the wrong place.
 
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      Sam is casting the spell to activate the symbols, they light up, then fade. Back at
 
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library. Billie tells Dean, it must be Chuck, your wasting your time. At the silo, a little
 
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girl on a cost disappears. One by one they all do. Bobby and Sam look at each other, he
 
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disappears in a puff of smoke. Donna senses something, she is gone, too. Billy tells  
 
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Dean that the wound he gave her is fatal, she shows it to him. It's something she
 
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can't survive. One thing she wishes before she dies is to see Dean dead. At the point
 
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she disarms him and takes back her blade. Both Dean and Cas are thrown back, they  
 
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run for the door they came in.  
 
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      Jack looks around and sees no one but he and Sam in the room. At the bunker
 
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Dean and Cas enter the room. They don't know what to do next. Seen behind Dean
 
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is Billie, her and clasped like crushing his heart. Dean clinches his chest from pain.
 
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She says, it's been you Dean, all along. Cas helps him out of the room. They fall
 
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in front of a book case. When she gets to it, they are gone. She follows them down
 
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a hallway. She is still taunting him, scrapping her blade against the brick wall. Isn't it
 
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time for the great release of death, she says. Once in a room. Cas pulls out a knife
 
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from Deans pocket and cuts his hand. He uses the blood to write a symbol on the  
 
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door to keep her out. She keeps banging on the door, each time the symbol glows.  
 
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      They talk about what they need to do, fight. Dean is upset and says he lead them
 
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into a trap, because he couldn't kill Chuck. He is upset with himself, it was Chuck
 
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all along. He knows everyone will die and it is his fault. Cas says, there is one thing
 
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she is afraid of and can hurt her. He tells Dean about the deal he made with the  
 
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Cosmic Entity. When Jack was dying he made a deal with him. When he was really
 
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happy he would come and take him away forever. He wondered what his happiness
 
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would look like. Happiness is not in having but in being. He tells Dean, he sees him
 
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self as his enemies. Cas sees him differently, hate and anger is what drives him and
 
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that is what he is. All the good and bad are out of love and selflessness. Those around
 
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Dean know and see this in him. He tells Dean he is the most loving and selfless  
 
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person ever knew. He says, knowing him has changed him. From the day he pulled
 
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him from hell. He cared about the whole world because of him. Cas crying says,
 
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you changed me Dean. Dean asks why this sounds like a goodbye. He tells him it is  
 
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and that he loves him. The black goo comes into the room, the cosmic entity enters.
 
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Billy is behind him, he pushes Dean aside, a handprint in on his jacket like when Cas
 
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pulled him from hell. Then goo takes them both.  
 
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      Jack and Sam leave the silo. Sam tries to call Dean, there is no answer. Jack asks
 
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if it was just them. Images of places empty, playgrounds, gas stations. Dean still on
 
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the floor see Sams name on his phone. He doesn't answer it. He puts his face in his
 
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hands and cries.  
 
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Revision as of 11:04, 12 November 2020


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Title Despair
Episode # Season 15, Episode 18
First aired November 5, 2020
Directed by Richard Speight, Jr.
Written by Robert Berens
On IMDB Despair
Outline The Winchesters, Castiel, and Jack search for a way to kill Death.
Monster Chuck
Billie
Timeline Immediately after 15.17 Unity
Location(s) Lebanon, Kansas
The Empty
Hastings, Minnesota
Death's Library
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Synopsis

Sam, Dean and Cas are helping Jack into a room in the bunker. The power from Adam's Rib, which was meant to be used to kill Chuck, is killing him. Billie appears and tells them that she can not stop the process of what Jack is going through. She makes him Jack disappear from his chair. He finds himself in the empty, in front of the Cosmic Entity, who is seated in front of him in the form of Meg. She asks him how he got there. And then he explodes. Billie tells them that the Empty is the one place that can absorb the impact. Death hints that Jack may have survived. She tells them that the Cosmic Entity is not as powerful as Chuck, and if survives, it will be angry at her. However it can't reach her on Earth, unless summoned. She tells them that she will not bring Jack back till he gives her God's book that he took from her library. At the bunker, Sam brings the book to Billie. He drops it on the table and walks away. She reads it and smiles at what she reads at the ending, which has changed. Dean demands she bring Jack back. In the Empty, Jack is alive. The Cosmic Entity reappears, and it is enraged. Itattacks jack, but he is transported back to the bunker. Cas, Sam and Dean go to comfort Jack, but Death intervenes. Dean goes after her with her sycthe and cuts her. She throws him against the wall and disappears. They all go to Jack. Sam picks up God's book but it is sealed shut. Later, late at night, Dean is at a table in the library drinking whiskey. Sam comes in. They both can't sleep. Dean apologizes for pulling a gun on himexplaining that his desire to kill Chuck had made him unable to see what he was doing. He noted that they have no one of power to help them. Amara is gone and Michael is not answering their prayers. In her library, one of Death's helpers tells her that he did the warding she asked for, to keep out the Empty. At the home of Charlie (from Apocalypse World) she is cleaning her weapons on the kitchen table, while Stevie makes eggs. Suddenly Stevie disappears and woman stands her plate falls to the ground and breaks. Charlie calls Sam and Dean who along with Jack and Cas travel to see her. Whiel Sam and Dean got to speak to her, Jack tells Castiel that he feels useless now he has no powers, and cannot help. Castiel tells Jack that they care for him, not because he is useful to them, but because of who he is. Jack admits he is scared, and Castiel shares that he is too. Dean and Sam are telling Charlie of Death's plan and specialte that she has sent Stevie back to Apocalypse World as she wants to out everything back in order.Sams phone rings, it's Bobby, who was on a case with one of the apocalypse world hunters who disappeared.Sam says thinks anyone who should have died, or has been resurrected will be on Death's list. anyone who crossed over and was resurrected are on Billie's list. He realizes that Eileen is next. In the Impala Sam is texting Eileen when she suddenly stops replying. When they reach her car they find her bag and her phone on the ground. Sam struggles to hold back his grief, and decides they should get everyone being targeted, they can to a safe warded place. Dean wants to end it with Billie -- she left her scythe, and he thinks he can kill her with that. Castiel agrees to got with him. Sam speaks to Donna who has found a suitable place to take refuge. When they stop for gas, Sam can see how distraught Jack is, so he offers to let him drive. At an abandoned silo, Sam and jack meet up with Donna, Bobby, Charlie and other apocalypse world hunters and their children. They ward the silo by painting sigils all over the inside. As Jack reaches down to patch a crack in the wall, his hand passes near a small plant, which instantly withers. Sam does one of Rowena's spells to strengthen the warding, and Bobby tells Sam that the hunters will look to him for leadership. At the Bunker, Dean gets the door to Death's library from Castiel, with the intention of trying to destroy it in order to get Death's attention. Death is in the library, but she senses their presence and magically slams Dean against a wall. She reminds Cas how he stabbed her in her back with his blade and attacks him. Dean pins her against the wall with her blade, and asks her to stop killing his people. She tells him it isn't her, asserting that it must be Chuck. Billy tells Dean that the wound he gave her earlier is fatal. One thing she wishes before she dies is to see Dean dead. At the point she disarms him and takes back her blade. Both Dean and Cas are thrown back, and they run for the door back to the Bunker. At the silo, a little girl on a cost disappears, and then one by one so do all the other hunters, including Bobby and Donna. Jack looks around and sees no one but he and Sam in the room. Billie pursues Dean and Castiel into the Bunker. She clasps her hand into a fist, and Dean feels pain as if it is like his heart is being crushed. Cas helps him out of the room, through the corridors. Death follows, taunting them. They take refuge in a storage room/ Castiel cuts his hand and uses the blood to draw a warding sigil on the door, which will briefly block Death's power. She keeps banging on the door, each time the symbol glows. Dean is upset and says he lead them into a trap, because he couldn't kill Chuck. He says he knows everyone will die and it is his fault. Cas points out that one thing can hurt her - The Cosmic Entity from the Empty. He tells Dean about the deal he made with the Cosmic Entity in exchange for Jack - that his life would be forfeit when he felt one moment of true happiness. He says he wondered what that moment could be, because he knew he couldn't have the one thing he really wanted. He tells Dean he know's Dean sees himself as his enemies do - driven by hate and anger. But that Cas knows Dean always acts out of love and selflessness. Those around Dean know and see this in him. He tells Dean he is the most loving and selfless person ever knew. He says that knowing Dean has changed him and made him too care about others, and about the whole world because of him. Dean asks why this sounds like a goodbye. Castiel tells him it is and that he loves him. As he speaks the words, a portal opens, and the black goo of The empty comes into the room. At that moment Death also bursts into the room. As the cosmic entity enters Castiel pushes Dean aside, leaving a handprint in on his jacket like the one that was burned into his arm when Cas pulled him from hell. Then The Empty takes them bot castiel adn Castiel. Jack and Sam leave the silo. Sam tries to call Dean, there is no answer. Jack asks if it was just them left. At the Bunker Dean sees Sam's name on his phone. He doesn't answer it. He puts his face in his hands and cries.

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Quotes

Billie: I think you've done enough. We were so close.

Dean: Chuck saw it coming, all of it, your whole plan!
Sam: It was doomed...

Billie: Because of you. It was doomed because of you.
Cosmic Entity: You're not looking so hot.

Jack: I'm sorry.

Cosmic Entity: Oh sh...
Castiel: Is he dead?

Billie: Maybe.
Dean: You said this was a suicide mission.
Billie: No, I said taking out Chuck and Amara would be fatal.
Castiel: It's a chain reaction.

Billie: Mmmhmm. The Empty? It's... different. Not as strong as Chuck or Amara, but... vast. But if Jack survives and if the Empty survives? It's gonna be pissed.
Sam: You were always gonna betray us. Once you defeated God, you were gonna take power. And that means everyone who got a free pass or a second chance, everyone who was resurrected or came from another world, you were gonna kill them all. Dean and me too. That's the order you want restored, that's always been your endgame!

Billie: You got me.

Castiel: You lied to everyone. Even the Empty, you promised it peace and quiet but you never meant it.
Cosmic Entity: You did this. You made it loud!
Jack: I feel... strange. I don't know if that's because of what happened to me, if it means something, or if I just feel strange because... it's over. The plan. My destiny. I was ready to die and, I wanted to, for Sam, for Dean, for the world. I wanted to make things right, and now... I don't know why I'm even here.

Castiel: Jack. You never needed absolution from Sam, or Dean, or from me. We don't care about you because you're useful or you fit into some grand design. We care about you because you're you.
Jack: God, the Empty, Billie, everyone's so mad at us and I don't have my powers. There's nothing I can do to protect us. I'm scared, Cass.

Castiel: I know. Me too.
Dean: Let's go, Cass. Let's go reap a Reaper.
Bobby: They get it, Sam. Now whether you like it or not, you're the big man here. Told 'em getting here was the order from the boss and they came running. No hesitation. My only worry is the lav situation. Didn't have time to truck in the Port-a-John.

Sam: Yeah, well if Dean and Cass can pull this off, we shouldn't be here too long.
Bobby: Okay. I brought a bucket. You think it'll work?
Sam: Well, angelic warding, Aramaic, Enochian and I have this. I found it in Rowena's things. A spell, "Praeses Magna." Should boost the strength of all the warding.
Bobby: "Should."

Sam: Bobby, this is all I got.
Billie: So, I guess this the part where I say "hello, boys." Hello, boys. What's the plan? Take me down with my own weapon?

Castiel: Something like that.
Billie: Well, he better work on his aim.
Dean: Thing is, that time, I wasn't trying to kill you.
Billie: Hmm. What's changed?
Dean: Oh, I don't know. Could be that you've started killing all my friends.

Billie: Interesting.
Dean: It's over. Call it off! Stop killing my people.

Billie: I didn't hurt your friends.
Dean: What?
Billie: You're in the wrong place, Dean.

Dean: What are you talking about?
Billie: If people are getting gone, I'm guessing it's Chuck. And that means you're just wasting time.
Billie: I'll let you in on something. When you cut me, that little nick? It was fatal, something I can't survive. See for yourself. You killed me, Dean. So yeah, no, I don't care about your friends. I don't care about your family. But seeing you here has reminded me of something. There is one thing I'd like. One wish before I go. I'd like to see you dead. I'm so glad you came.
Billie: It's you, Dean. It's always been you. Death-defying, rule-breaking. You are everything I lived to set right. To put down. To tame. You are human disorder incarnate.

Castiel: I've got you.

Billie: Come on, Dean. You can't escape me. Don't you think it's finally time? Time for the sweet release of Death?
Dean: I just led us into another trap. All because I -- I couldn't hurt Chuck. Because I was angry and because I just needed something to kill and because that's all I know how to do.

Castiel: Dean.

Dean: It was Chuck all along. We never should've left Sam and Jack. We should be there with them now. Everybody's gonna die, Cas, everybody. I can't stop it.
Castiel: I always wondered since I took that burden, that curse, what it could be. What my true happiness could even look like. I never found an answer. Because the one thing I want...it's something I know I can't have. But I think I know...I think I know now. Happiness isn't in the having. It's in just being...it's in just saying it."
Castiel: I know. I know how you see yourself, Dean. You see yourself the same way our enemies see you. You're destructive and you're angry and you're broken. You're -- You're "Daddy's Blunt Instrument." And you think that hate and anger that's -- that's what drives you. That's who you are. It's not. And everyone who knows you sees it. Everything you have ever done, the good and the bad you have done for love. You raised your little brother for love. You fought for this whole world for love. That is who you are. You're the most caring man on Earth. You are the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know. You know, ever since we met, ever since I pulled you out of Hell, knowing you has changed me. Because you cared, I cared. I cared about you. I cared about Sam. I cared about Jack. I cared about the whole world because of you. You changed me, Dean.

Dean: Why does this sound like a goodbye?
Castiel: Because it is. I love you.
Dean: Don't do this, Cas. Cas.

Castiel: Goodbye, Dean.
Jack: Sam? Was it just them?
Sam: I don't know.

Trivia & References

We can briefly see that Chuck's Death Book has Alpha and Omega symbols on the cover. In the Book of Revelation (1:8) God is described as:
"I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty."

Minutiae

Originally titled "Despair" which then changed to "The Truth" and then back to "Despair"
This was Richard Speight, Jr.'s 11th and final episode as a director.
Billie confirms that the Cosmic Entity was telling the truth about her plan to become the entity ruling the universe. She also reveals that she only said that Jack killing Chuck and Amara would be fatal, not that it would kill him, which Castiel realizes is because it would've set off a chain reaction.
Jack survives his detonation but is left completely powerless. However, after reading Chuck's Death Book, Billie indicates that he still has a role to play in Chuck's ultimate defeat.
The Cosmic Entity states that Jack "made it loud" when he detonated in the Empty, suggesting that something terrible happened. Previously, the Entity had stated that it was silent because all of the angels and demons were sleeping.
Sam: I need you to drive.

Jack: I... I only drove once.

In 14.07 Unhuman Nature, Dean taught Jack how to drive when he was dying for the first time.
Billie: Castiel. Remember when you stabbed me in the back? 'Cause I do.
Billie is referencing her first death in 12.09 First Blood.
Charlie's Building is named "Kim Manor" (it is seen etched on the front doors), a tribute to the late EP and director Kim Manners
When Jack tries to touch a flower, it wilts at his approach. Something similar to what happened when Amara touched flowers in 11.23 Alpha and Omega after mortally wounding Chuck.
In Castiel's speech he gave while dying in 12.12 Stuck in the Middle (With You), he also spoke about how being with the Winchesters changed him and how he loves them, before he prepared to sacrifice himself for their safety.
When Castiel says that Dean sees himself as "Daddy's blunt instrument", it is a quote of the words Dean says to himself when he visited his own subconscious in 3.10 Dream a Little Dream of Me:
"Dad knew who you really were. A good soldier and nothing else. Daddy's blunt little instrument."
Castiel's end speech also bears some similarity to the confrontation between him and Dean in 4.22 Lucifer Rising, where Castiel tells Dean all he sees inside him is his "guilt, anger, and confusion."
Before Castiel dies, he leaves a bloody handprint on Dean's shoulder, mirroring the burned handprint he left on Dean when he pulled him out of Hell in 4.01 Lazarus Rising. Misha Collins later revealed that the handprint was not scripted, but rather an idea that he, Jensen, and Richard Speight, Jr. workshopped on the day of filming.
As Castiel is taken by the Empty, the black tendrils briefly bear a visual symmetry to Castiel first unfurling his wings in 4.01 Lazarus Rising.
Following Castiel telling Dean "I love you," #Destiel and #DestielisCanon trended on Twitter. At the same time The Daily Mail and The NY Post published an unconfirmed story that Vladimir Putin was going to step down and #Putin started trending. Somehow the algorithm linked these two events on the list of trending topics, leading to many people confused about the connection!
After the episode, Misha tweeted: "#Supernatural Tonight, watching Cas talk to Dean, I got lost in the story and forgot for a moment that I'm the one who plays that angel and I thought, 'He's how I want to be. He's openhearted and he's selfless and he's true.' "
Seven members of the SPN cast attended Darklight Online Con 2020 the weekend after this episode aired, including Misha Collins, who discussed the confession scene (and its controversy amongst fans) while explaining to the other cast members who may not have seen the episode yet, "Castiel tells Dean he loves him and basically makes Destiel canon. So Castiel makes this homosexual declaration of love which is, you know, amazing that that happens, and then he dies right afterwards, which plays into a timeless Hollywood trope of 'kill the gays,' which also then pisses off- Like we give, and then we take away." At the con, Misha also said that he knew the confession was coming for more than a year, that Jensen knew about it for three months, and that Jensen had agreed to it. Richard Speight Jr, the director of this episode, said that he, Misha, Jensen, and other crew filmed the confession scene last because of the weight of it, that they all had drinks after, and then they boarded a plane that had one of its engines explode, making for a very emotional night. Misha also told this story, and how he felt filming that last scene, in a CW spot posted to twitter.

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